Need a Break

A nice holiday in rajasthan had relaxed me and I was all upbeat, then came the long ordeal of dad's illness along with Toshu's board exams, and add to it the tensions of recession - hit work, recovering or rather limping towards recovery, blazing heat and the combination is more potent than a Molotov Cocktail! Seeing dad in a state where he was incoherent and not in a position to understand or recognise me or anyone, looking for all the world like one of the crazies you see on the road, has somehow upset me more than I thought...those visuals continue to wake me up at night. I am tired of putting on a cheerful face for my son, the world and after so many times during one lifetime, I have exhausted even my reserves of energy and optimism. Dad's better now and recovering but somehow this time, I am still tired and listless. Moody people and the hot summer weather is not helping. Want a quiet break...somewhere far from the real world, in a world of make believe maybe??? I now understand why we need siblings - somebody to actually share the burden with you and with who you can unload...poor Toshu - even he will be alone! Right now, I am doing all that I need to do, going through day after day but hardly anybody realises that I need a break, or even that I feel low...maybe not everyone needs breaks every so often or is it me??